I recently realized something about myself - I don't have to be super strong and be the tough guy. I can be sad or mopey, I can cling to people when I need them. I realized this because I often don't talk about when sad or upset or cry when I feel like crying because I believed it would inconvenience the wonderful people in my life who might be currently dealing with their own problems ... but I realized that problems in my life don't occur when its convenient to me or the people I confide in and to "protect" my family and friends from my worries only increased them in me and I don't like that feeling. So I talked to Ashley, and my mom, I talked to Jazz, my brother, Stephanie, Su and Sunflower - mostly because of the time of morning it was but because just like I love my friends and family enough to listen to their worries and thoughts to ease their minds they would do the same for me, they don't need protecting and its okay to get mopey or sad around them and after that I felt better. I've spent the last 8 months being tougher than I should have been and it came back and kicked my ass but I needed that wake up call. Mom and Jason no I'm unemployed but trying and they're helping me out with links and reassurance and love and its not as scary for me now. Jason even drove down here from Virginia(13 hours) to hang out with me the past 3 days - he helped with getting my resume printed, took care of me and most of all cheered me up. I think ti was good for both of us to see each other and lean on each other. I'm gonna try my damnedest from now on to not bottle myself up, to let my guard down and not be the tough guy all the time cuz I realized I don't have to be... thanks for all the love and support guys

Woot for Minwoo

sorry Nat!!! Love you...

Comics, double woot!

But they already know of the Simpson goodness?

Oh yeah, I totally wanna be Ms. Kitty!

So Su and I went to see the midnight showing of Twilight...

and it was GOOD!!! Squee*

Not the part with the waiting surrounded by a run of fussy insipid hyper teenagers but the actual movie was really good. Better than I had dared to hope.

I love the cast... Rob is Edward - the half smile the brooding the tension - oh yes please! So damn yummy....

Kristen is an awesome Bella and I love all the Cullens. If you worried about them butchering it, no worries. They did a really good job keeping it like the book, key things are still included and some things I wondered how they would come out across film were handled well. It was funny and tense and true to the characters - plus lots of handsome brooding men doesn't hurt.

OK now I'm done being a fan girl - Go see Twilight- ok now I'm done

- Hugs OK

PS- All squee over the phone fests are welcome!

OBAMA IS PRESIDENT!!!! THANK GOD!!!!! :) ::Bounces around as best she can with hurt foot::

YAY we have a president that's not a idiot.

So I had a great time at the til about the time I stepped on the glassy remains of a broken bottle. I went to a Urgent care center ($125.00 of unexpected money gone, oy) yesterday and heres the gist of it:

I should have come in sooner for stitches.
So I'm gonna have to let it heal from the bottom up.
I can't walk on it for 2 weeks - so no work...uggghh.
I'm on a antibiotic, a pain killer and I have to get a tetnis shot.
I have to clean and wrap it too... oww

Pray for me that work will let me go on Medical Leave with some pay.

I'm soo tired of negatvie stuff chasing me down lately. OY!!!

To everyone who helped take care of me... thanks

espeacially Su, Drew, Mei and Jackie!

Yay... The boy hugged me and told me he wants to hang out again because he really had fun that night (YES!) at the gym yesterday! It's great to be able to talk to him now and not do anything silly! Then Jasmin and I went for a walk on the second floor and proceeded to watch the cluster of trainers swell around the front desk. Then Jasmin got a great idea: To play Leisha ball and chuck me over the side to see if anyone would catch me. I told her know but then as we passed the desk again she called down to Jeff and said "If I throw her over, you'll catch her right?" He said yes! But the problem he doesnt know not to encourage Jasmin yet. So I told amber and she said no because it was a liability (not because it would result in death or anything...) Poor me! O well, the rest to the gym time was spent working out and watching Jeff and picking on Amber and Xtreme Cheerleader! I hope this works out!

ORLANDO, Fla. - Lou Pearlman, the man who created the Backstreet Boys and 'N Sync, was sentenced Wednesday to 25 years in federal prison for engineering a decades-long scam that bilked thousands of investors out of their life savings.

It was the maximum sentence the boy band mogul could receive for allegedly swindling some $300 million from investors and banks since the early 1980s.

He pleaded guilty in March to two counts of conspiracy and single counts of money laundering and presenting a false claim in bankruptcy court.

U.S. District Judge G. Kendall Sharp noted that many victims were Pearlman's relatives, friends and retirees in their 70s or 80s who lost everything.

"The sympathy factor just doesn't run very high with the court," Sharp said.

However, the judge said he would reduce Pearlman's sentence by one month for every $1 million returned to investors. It wasn't clear how, or if, investors would ever be compensated.

"I want to say clearly that there's no pot of gold out there," defense attorney Fletcher Peacock said.

Prosecutors allege Pearlman scammed individuals out of an estimated $200 million, and banks out of another $100 million.

The courtroom was packed with victims, some of whom gave emotional testimony. Another two dozen or so waited outside.

"Over the past nine months since my arrest, I've come to realize the harm that's been done," Pearlman said in a short courtroom statement. "I'm truly sorry and I apologize for what's happened."

Peacock said Pearlman meant to pay back all the investors, and noted he had returned about $103 million.

He said Pearlman got caught up in lawsuits - also alleged fraudulent business practices - over his otherwise successful entertainment ventures in the 1990s that prevented him from returning the money.

Wow, it's kinda hard to believe but I'm gonna be 24 on Saturday...which should be right if both Megan and Chris just turned 22. I'm just waiting for mom to call and say "You're almost a quarter of a century old!" I tell you, one day you turn twenty and are enjoying the ride and the next thing you know - the years start streaming past. The teens took forever and the twenty are moving like rapids. They need to switch or else I want remote from "Click"!Oh well, 24 is a blessing! There are quite a few who didn't get this much time so I can't complain. Here's hoping for twenty four more!

By the way, if anyone wanted to get me something, gift-cards rule! I'm easily amused. Borders, Walmart, Best Buy - its all gravy and if not thanks for just thinking of me and wishing me well!

Next step - June and the Birthday madness! So Susan, Jasmin, Stephanie and Jason - if you have a preference on a gift tell me now while I still have goverment money!

Hugs out!

So Ashley cousin,her cousin's girlfriend and their baby came down to visit. Well the baby Kylie is about 15 and a half months old. Now, as a baby in a good sized apartment, you would want to run and play the baby was playing near Jasmin. Now Jasmin was playing her PS3 and ocassionally turning to jabber at the baby in a whole lot of blather and playing on. At about this point the innocent happy baby say the power strip the game systems are connected to and promptly reached over to pull the plug. Jasmin immediately leans over and say "Noooooooooooooo" in a slow mo sounding worried voice. Now I must stress that there was no malice in her voice but that did not stop Kylie from stopping, toppling over in the opposite direction, scrunching up her little face and bursting into baleful sobbing. Oh, Jasmin you brute. The baby cried for a good 10 minutes. Jasmin sat there going " I didnt mean to make it cry!" All the while the momma was laughing.

In a recent article from the Daily Mail, which claims crews working on Half-Blood Prince have been told the final film will be split:

A film source said: "There's so much to fit that the view is the last movie should be in two halves. There is a huge battle when Harry, played by Daniel Radcliffe, and fellow Hogwartians fight the dark forces needs to be done really well."

What's more, the Daily Mail claims that big name directors such as Steven Spielberg are being considered to direct Deathly Hallows. We'll look into this rumor and let you know what Warner Brothers has to say!


*Hmmm, me likey the split film idea! I kinda hope it's true!